It's been ages since my last post and what a lot has happened since then...where do I start?!! Well, I guess the biggest and best thing is that all my hard work and patience has payed off...I've finally got where I want to be...aaaaarrrrrrrrgh!! it's a scary place to be as I don't usually get things like this but I'm coping...just...and with all the luck and good will in the world I might just get that elusive fairytale I keep dreaming about!
It's all been happening this week and now here I am, almost a week later and it still seems a bit unbelieveable. It's still not a perfect situation but I'm on my way and it sure does feel good! So all I need to do is keep plugging away and in about three weeks time I'll know if my efforts have paid off. It's killing me waiting like this but I know it has to be done so I'm hanging on in there.
I look at his photo and I still think, "What the hell does he see in me...?" but then he keeps saying that when we get together he might not want to let me go! I'm not going to argue with that!! I forgot how much I enjoy writing these things so I'll have to keep on top of them and make sure I get my daily dose of therapy!! God, I'm so excited....xx
Friday 30 October 2009
Wednesday 7 October 2009
Mental slap!
Where the hell does all the time go? One minute it was last week and now it's this week....jeez, it's crazy! The individual days seem to drag in but when you put them all together the collective week seems to fly by which is extremely scary. Don't get me wrong, I want to get past this point as fast as possible but I don't have enough time to do all the things I want to do and I just know I'm going to get the news I've been hoping for when I'm least expecting it - as you always do - and I'll be running round like a headless chicken panicking and clucking like there's no tomorrow! Aaaaaaaaargh!!!!
So it's time for a mental slap, right? Not sure if I have the courage to do it...it's a bit like ripping the wax strip off your own bikini line! You know you have to do it or it'll just sit there going all gooey and nasty so you slowly reach down and grab it by the edges like it says in the instructions....keeping your eyes closed and biting down on your lip like that's going to help, then........rip!!!!! Owwww!!!!!!
Now all you're left with is a red, sore patch of skin...not all of the hairs have been removed and you look a bit like a scalped chicken but you know that you can always tweezer the others out at a later date when the pain has receded. You still have to go over the area with some astringent to close the pores and clean the excess wax off but you feel the relief when you apply the moisturiser afterwards and then you can attempt to put your trousers back on and sit down comfortably knowing that it'll look better in a day or two.
I think I do quite a good analogy!! Sounds about right....now all I have to do is get that astringent out then slap on some moisturiser and I'll be away! Ready to fight another day! Maybe next time I'll use a mental depilatory cream.....xx
So it's time for a mental slap, right? Not sure if I have the courage to do it...it's a bit like ripping the wax strip off your own bikini line! You know you have to do it or it'll just sit there going all gooey and nasty so you slowly reach down and grab it by the edges like it says in the instructions....keeping your eyes closed and biting down on your lip like that's going to help, then........rip!!!!! Owwww!!!!!!
Now all you're left with is a red, sore patch of skin...not all of the hairs have been removed and you look a bit like a scalped chicken but you know that you can always tweezer the others out at a later date when the pain has receded. You still have to go over the area with some astringent to close the pores and clean the excess wax off but you feel the relief when you apply the moisturiser afterwards and then you can attempt to put your trousers back on and sit down comfortably knowing that it'll look better in a day or two.
I think I do quite a good analogy!! Sounds about right....now all I have to do is get that astringent out then slap on some moisturiser and I'll be away! Ready to fight another day! Maybe next time I'll use a mental depilatory cream.....xx
Saturday 3 October 2009
Time out is now over!!
Ever felt so sorry for yourself you questioned every decision you'd ever made? Well, that was me this week...feeling so damn sorry for myself it made me sick! So I got it a bit wrong - we all do and it's not as if it's going to be the last time it happens. I'll do it again and again but hopefully next time I won't dive into the self pity like I have this time. Have some pride for the love of God woman!!
So what do I do now? It's October and Christmas is almost upon us. My favourite time of year and the time when dreams come true...in my opinon anyway...so who's to say mine won't still come true? So things haven't happened in quite the way I wanted them to, that's no reason for me to get all sentimental and maudlin. I need to be positive and look forward. If I just keep that little flame alive, in my heart, then I might just have the merriest Christmas I've ever had! I haven't given up hope just yet but dwelling on what might have been is getting me nowhere and certainly won't help me move on. I've got things I could be doing this week and in the weeks to come so I'd better get on with them before it's too late! Time marches on and waits for no man so I'd better get a wriggle on and start putting all those plans into action before the cobwebs really set in...xxxx
So what do I do now? It's October and Christmas is almost upon us. My favourite time of year and the time when dreams come true...in my opinon anyway...so who's to say mine won't still come true? So things haven't happened in quite the way I wanted them to, that's no reason for me to get all sentimental and maudlin. I need to be positive and look forward. If I just keep that little flame alive, in my heart, then I might just have the merriest Christmas I've ever had! I haven't given up hope just yet but dwelling on what might have been is getting me nowhere and certainly won't help me move on. I've got things I could be doing this week and in the weeks to come so I'd better get on with them before it's too late! Time marches on and waits for no man so I'd better get a wriggle on and start putting all those plans into action before the cobwebs really set in...xxxx
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